Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I’m not Desensitized.
I don’t really watch television (except for my three guilty pleasures that are Tivo’d each week: The Office, My Name is Earl, & Family Guy). These shows amount to about 1 hour of tv viewing per week (30 minute shows are only 20 minutes when you watch them w/o commercials). We have one TV in our house and it’s in our bedroom. I recently read that many American homes have more television sets in their homes than people! That’s just madness.
I don’t watch movies, nothing against them – but I am sort of crunched for time and it’s just not on my priority list. Once and a while I’ll watch one of the kids’ movies with them, but as far as “adult movies” – I think the last one I saw was Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon and I think I may’ve been pregnant with Amelle at the time (she’s 5 now). There may’ve been a rental or two since then, but nothing scary or violent. I have never even seen a horror movie, ever.
I don’t read or watch the news, so I know very little about what’s happening in the world. I do read the Bible, so I know what has happened and what’s going to happen – I kind of try to stay oblivious to the details in between.
Anyway, in light of recent news events that I have read up on, I’ve realized that I am not desensitized, and this has me at a disadvantage. I can’t “handle” the news. I am deeply disturbed and upset by it and I can’t let it go. I live in a world of blissful ignorance, and when the news of the world leaks in, I don’t know how to process it.
Ironically I'm married to a news junky – Jerms reads everything: The News of the Weird, The Onion, CNN, ESPN, NBC, ect… Occasionally he’ll feed me the latest, “oh, they found those missing kids dead” – me: “what missing kids?”, then he’ll tell me the latest story and I get sick to my stomach over it.
I can’t handle it. I should’ve been born to a tribe of aboriginals somewhere far away from media.