Friday, January 29, 2010

It's baaaack...

You may remember a few months ago the Lord kept putting Isaiah 40:31 out in front of us. It was really overt, like as in every where we turned. At the time, Dirt and I were weary, the craziness of our hectic life was taking it's toll and we were beginning to contemplate our options.

I was honestly thinking about tossing away my career and doing something totally different - something that would allow me to spend more time being a mom. During the week that the Lord kept giving us Isaiah 40:31, we were actually looking at buying a small business that I could run while the kids were in school.

We were exploring the business idea and felt pretty good about moving forward with the next steps...when all of the sudden the verse came. And came again, and again, and everywhere we turned that week, there the verse was - tell us to hang in there and wait on Him. We decided to listen and we dropped the idea of buying the business.

A few weeks ago, the idea came back. I began thinking about the business again - it was still for sale. Afterall, the verse said to "wait"...and I had - for two long months. "Maybe now is the right time", I thought. I actually thought about the verse and felt that I was a safe enough distance from it - I hadn't seen it pop up anywhere since November. I didn't mention it to Dirt, but was planning to bring it up to him this weekend.

Until this morning. Guess what popped up in front of me again?

Out of no-freaking-where this verse was right in front of my eyes! The girls had crawled into bed this am and I turned the television on to wake them up. Jon & Kate Plus 8 was on (not a show that we normally watch - especially not at 6:30 in the morning). I was trying to motivate myself to step out of bed when I looked up and the television and saw Jon sitting there talking to the camera, wearing this shirt. What? I rubbed my eyes and looked again. There it was.

Fine. I'll wait.

Isaiah 40:31
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I'm Going Back

Here. Soon.
Details coming...once I figure them all out.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


If you know Jesus, you know that if there is one thing He doesn't like, it's a hypocrite. Which makes it all the more disappointing when you realize you are one.

A few weeks ago I got an e-mail asking if I would like to be a guest author on one of my favorite blogs. I considered it a HUGE honor to write for Jillian while she was busy giving birth. I didn't really know what I was going to write about, until I came across a post on Carole Turner's blog about an article that she had read (are you confused yet). Carole's post was based on an article called "When No One Cares About Your Cause" - which asserts that if you want people to care about what you care about you need to live it and help them experience it. Anyway, I had my own opinion about this assertion and I started typing.

You can read my post if you want, but the long and short of it is that I'm not really surprised when people aren't as passionate about orphans as I am. I don't think you can drag people into your passions. My passion for orphans came from God, He awakened me, He made me care. I believe that if you want people to care about your cause, you need to get down on your knees and ask God to bring them along.

I was satisfied with what I had to say and I sent it off to Jillian without too much thought. A few days later I saw that it was posted on Jillian's blog. I didn't win a Pulitzer. Days passed and the post faded into history, uneventful. Done. Or so I thought.

It wasn't until Thursday when Dirt and I had a serious discussion about my passion for orphans vs. his lack of interest, that I realized that I hadn't drunk my own Kool-Aid. I believed my position and had even privately vowed not to try to coerce Dirt into loving orphans, but I wasn't living that out. I was trying to force my cause on him and I couldn't understand why he didn't care about orphans like I do, particularly as a Christian.


Yeah, I'm a total hypocrite.

Dirt hadn't read my post (bad husband alert), however, during our discussion on Thursday, he advised me to pray and ask God to give him that same passion, he didn't have it and I couldn't give it to him. Duh.

Living out our beliefs and convictions is so much more difficult than writing about them.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Seasons Change

I've been saying for a while now that I'm expecting a big change in my life. Yet everything seems like it's the same. Maybe I'm expecting something too radical; maybe the change is happening, but it's subtle? I don't know. I'm not all that patient.

Here's the only change I've observed in my life:

Our backyard.
Clockwise from top left: Spring, Summer, Winter, Fall.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Happy MLK Day

An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.

- Martin Luther King Jr

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Friday, January 15, 2010

How to Make Friends: Turtle Edition

I'm not suggesting that you should bribe people to like you....but if you ever did, you could use these things.

You'll need these three magical ingredients and two female helpers under 10, or one man, or no helpers.

You have the one helper place pretzels on a cookie sheet. She's one of those real orderly types, so this is a good job for her. She gets all bent out of shape if things are out of order.

Then you have your other helper unwrap Rolos. This isn't as fun as you might think. However, I find that if you allow your helpers to eat one, you get a lot more work out of them.

Then the sweet marriage! Your helpers will need to place the unwrapped Rolos carefully on top of the pretzels. One Rolo on top of one pretzel...and not off to the side either - they should be right in the middle of the pretzel, the nucleus, if you will.

Once your Rolo-topped pretzels are lined up like little chocolate soldiers, they are ready to go off to battle, er.. the oven.
The 200 degree oven. ...And not for long for Pete's sake! Just a few minutes, until the chocolate gets a little squishy. Squishy, not melty. This is an important distinction.

Then your helpers can take magical ingredient #3 - the pecans and ever-so-gently push them down onto the Rolo-covered pretzel.

And well-ah! Turtles!

If your mouth isn't watering, you haven't tried one.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Poverty Stinks



If you have a baby or know of anyone who does or will, you need to order one of these. 100% of proceeds are used to improve the lives of orphans who live in extreme poverty.

These are so cute, the ALMOST make me want to have another baby (but don't tell Dirt).

Monday, January 11, 2010

I'm in Love

It's true. Yesterday I floated around on Cloud 9 because we had skyped with B in the morning. B always wants to interact with Avery. Yesterday he asked him to sing "Open the Eyes of My Heart" to him. Avery and Amelle sang it, then they all goofed around. B and his Kolfe friends laughed as they watched Avery, Amelle, and Amaya drag each other around the living room. We had a lot of laughs yesterday; it's beginning to feel more natural, like family time.

Then today came and my heart ached. I miss him. I want B to be here, in my living room, playing the stupid game where the kids drag each other around the floors with Maya riding on their bellies. I want all of us to be together.

Then I got an e-mail and it made my heart sing praises. I am his special gift?

No, he is mine.

Hello mom,

How are you doing today? I am doing great. I got the package that you send for me. Thank you very much. The shoe that you sent is fit for me. Generally I love all things. We had a nice Christmas. The special thing that I got for this Christmas is you. This Christmas was so different for me. Because God gave for me the sweetest family. I don’t know how I can express about you. I love you very much.

Mom, I was very happy yesterday skyping with you. My brother and sisters are so funny. I love them a lot.

Ok mama knows that I am thinking of you and all of my family. I love you and miss you a lot. I can’t wait up to see you in person. I am praying about it every day.

Love your son B.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Video Update

I suppose it's unfair to leave you hanging....the video is done. The interview took 40 minutes. I took an intermission at the 19 minute mark, because I do recognize that people have lives and kids and work and pets and pain in the buttock region when they sit in one place for too long.

However, I should have considered that Youtube only allows you to upload videos that are 10 minutes in length.

So I'm still trying to figure out how to upload the darn things. Until then, feel free to stop by and watch them on my computer...they're right on the desktop.

...Oh, it's Christmas in Ethiopia today, so Merry Christmas!!!