Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Another Tuesday

Another Tuesday has come and gone with no word. Yesterday my caseworker said that they're waiting on one last letter. One last little piece of paper is holding this whole thing up. God, you can do this - it's just one piece of paper - You make trees for heaven's sake!

She says there's nothing more to do on "their end", they're just waiting for the last piece of paper. Meanwhile, the August 6th deadline looms. The timing couldn't be worse. Or maybe it's my faith that's faulty.

I'm trying to rest in His supreme sovereignty - in the knowledge that He is perfect and everything He does is perfect - including his timing to bring B home. I wonder if someday this waiting - these 2+ years of waiting will all make sense.

Some days I'm better at waiting than others. Today I stink. Praying that tomorrow will bring good news.

Friday, July 22, 2011


On Thursday Maya's school was having a dress up day. The theme: Cowgirl/boy.

She rocked it.


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

More Waiting

Sometimes the waiting is unbearable. Today is one of those days.

The day began with hope. I prayed on the way to work and asked God to give me good news today. I went about my morning with an air of expectancy.

I usually email my caseworker on Tuesdays - just cause. I'm not sure why it works out that way, I suppose on Monday I'm trying to be patient and trust God, but by Tuesday my patience gives out and I feel the need to take matters into my own hands. Lord help me.

When today's email came back telling me "they're working on it" - I of those long heavy sighs. This is basically the same response I received last week and the week prior.

I've made up some ground rules for myself so that I don't become too annoying to my caseworker. One of these self-imposed ground rules is that I am entitled to one status update email per week. Unfortunately this means that once I get the "they're working on it" email, I have to wait until the next week to ask again.

This is probably why today I'm particularly broken up over the wait. In conjunction with me waiting longer than planned, I'm up against a huge deadline. The courts close on August 8th for 8 weeks. If we don't get in before the 8th, then nothing happens until October. Nothing. Period. Each day I wait, the already extremely narrow window of opportunity gets even more narrow.

I have been asking God and praying fervently that He would move mountains to get B home in September (he turns 15 in September). If we don't get submitted by August's just not gonna happen.


If it doesn't happen, well...then...God will still be God. He will still be awesome. He will still be perfect and worthy of all my trust, adoration, and praise. I am trying hard to trust His timing. I know He knows best. Lord help me trust you with everything I have and let me find peace in knowing that your timing is absolutely perfect.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Oh Baby

I have been spending a lot of time researching newborn photography.

Hours that should have been sleeping were spent watching newborn photo-sessions.

I set up my livingroom

Tested with some willing models

(slightly larger and more cooperative than a newborn)

And found a willing mommy and an adorable 12 day old baby.

The session went okay...I guess...for my first time. I didn't get the exact pose I was hoping for, but I will keep trying. I have another mommy willing to hand over her newborn in September. Victory shall be mine!

Monday, July 11, 2011

A Hot One

Today was hot.

Fortunately we had plans to go to da beach.

We did a lot of this...

...and some of that.

It was a good day.

Friday, July 01, 2011


Know what's super-cute?

These two.

They're BFFLs

Which apparently means "Best Friends For Life"

Me and her mom (my friend Renee) are currently picking out coordinating dresses for the wedding...but don't tell the kids..we don't want to ruin the amazing friendship they have.

(photo credit: Renee Binette)